Its a new old single life for me...

I've lived on my own since I moved out of the house for college. One could argue I was on my own before then because I took care of myself and my finances, but anyway, you get the gist. I rented an apartment with Nikki in New Haven, rented a place with Jess in Hawley, and then Bing and I rented an apartment together before he left for basic training, but I lived totally alone for the 5 1/2 months that he was gone. I've always been a scaredy pants - you can ask my mom. Even if I was walking through my parent's house (that I lived in full time from 5-18) I would turn every light on in the place at night time. I have a hugely overactive imagination and it really gets away from me sometimes. Anyway, in our tiny little apartment in Hawley, tucked away on the side of a house where you couldn't even see our front door (ie you couldn't really tell we lived there) I still made sure that door was locked every night and I even locked the bedroom door, and slept with a softball bat next to the bed. I felt really safe there, and actually didn't need to lock any of the doors if you want to be perfectly honest.


Now I'm in this brand spankin' new COUNTRY, where people are loud and everything echos so any sound seems like its right outside the door, and my husband gets put on mids. Mid shift works from 11pm-7am. This shift suuuuuucks for many reasons. A) I have to sleep alone. Hello insomnia! I'm too scared to go to sleep so I stay awake all night until I can't take it anymore. And right now its 12:33 am and I am exhausted but won't go to bed for probably another hour or two. B) Bing sleeps all day. C) I want to reverse my schedule to sleep when he does, but then I miss out on my entire life (working out, ACES, the girls) D) We have a 1 car garage, with a garage on either side of us... We have to move cars around in order to function. I have to wake Bing up to move his car in order for me to be able to go anywhere during the day.
Anywho, the point of the story IS... mids is the worst shift ever. Lindsay told me I'd never see Bing and she was right.

I think I'm going to go set up my safety devices, and go lay down. I'm re-reading Harry Potter now so let's see how far I get this evening.

Also, I totally apologize for this post. There's a bit of complaining in it, and this blog isn't for that. I guess its part of my new way of life.

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